No more re-runs

I have to stop for a moment and decide what do I get out of all this?  I mean, I seem to be helping and aiding others, but is it wrong to want some sense of satisfaction myself?

All this disappointment this week, and all I can do is delve.

Why I hate this place

So a friend of mine got laid off earlier this week.

I thought I'd be nice, invite him and a friend of his over for dinner and a movie. Booked 3 days in advance.

Got a text at 4pm today. "Hey, we're going out to see a movie instead. See ya!"

And people wonder why I hate this place.

I wish I was ready to move..... this has been a crap week.

Crazy in the heat

There is something in the heat. People are going crazy. And some people are just clueless about their bad manners, their idiocy, just clueless.

Heat

it is uncomfortably hot in town. I prefer the air conditioning of my house than the hot and humid outdoors.

i'm in a mixed mood. sort of pleased with myself. sort of tired. sort of wishing for the next step in my publishing career - the all important CHECK as well as the title and release date.  It's been agonizing waiting all this time.

i want very much to help launch my young discovery.... it's been interesting learning about his personality - the how and why he reacts to things.

surprise

i like making people happy. i am a mirror. my joy is watching other people's joy.  what would the shrink say about that?

irritation

long day today. hot.  and I'm mildly irritated at my new friends who seem evasive about a couple issues regarding money and roles.  I'm not going to go down that path again. A part of me just wants to enjoy life, another part of me wants to fix the errors of the past.

Dreams

Had a weird dream that this guy I knew hooked up with a friendgirl at the House of Spirits.  I was annoyed. I asked, "If you can hook up with her, why don't you ask her to help you?"

And he was very nonchalant that he was just getting laid, and not asking for help.

So odd, so real.